Me?

One of the sweetest parts of any relationship is the moments that you share together when you are still learning things about one another. As you build and allow that relationship to grow, you do so by spending time together, seeing how the other person is, observing their habits, their quirks, seeing how they respond to different things or different situations.

That is one of my favorite aspects of my relationship with Christ. I love studying His Word and spending time, just me and Him and I love learning more about Him, learning more about what He thinks about things, seeing things from His perspective. I love finding new insights into His character and His attributes and once those are discovered, I love pondering them. Meditating on them. I can spend hours, days, even weeks on trying to comprehend some of the things of God.

How can He be so patient with me?

How can He love me so much?

I can be so foolish sometimes. I can get my eyes and mind fixed on my piddly little situations and think they are so important and convince myself that He doesn't care - that nobody cares and that I am just on my own in this whole world. And my stinky selfish pride kicks into full gear and restricts me from thinking I could ask for help from others and leads me into a full blown pitty party for myself.

But then He sends me a reminder. A "Hey, kid. I'm here. I got this."

I love how He does that. That's when I realize how foolish I can be at times and yet, He's always there, always patiently waiting for me to finish my little tantrum so He can just wrap His arms around me to let me know He is my protection...He is my comfort.

I love discovering those things about God. I need those. I love when I can be reading in my Bible and come across verses that describe it so well, like this from Psalm 40:

"I waited patiently for the Lord; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock and established my goings."

I just need to interject here with 2 thoughts:
- "and heard my cry" He is always there to hear my cry, no matter how often it may be, He always hears it!
- He brings me out the horrible pit of pride, self pity and everything else I let creep in. When I take the reigns from Him and start going and doing what I want, He pulls me back, takes the reigns back and gets me back on course. He protects me and makes sure I never steer too far off course.

"And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it and fear, and shall trust in the Lord. Blessed is that man that maketh the Lord his trust, and respecteth not the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies."

I love that He gives me a new song. :)

"Many, O Lord my God, are thy wonderful works which thou hast done, and thy thoughts which are us ward; they cannot be reckoned up in order unto thee, if I would declare and speak of them they are more than can be numbered."

I cannot even count nor comprehend the vast amount of wonderful works of God, nor even the amount of thoughts He has of me. Me! That simply baffles me. That God, who created all, encompasses ALL time...He thinks of me? "What is man, that thou art mindful of him?" Sometimes, I just don't understand why God would waste His time thinking about me but the Bible says He does and I love that.

I love getting to know Him more each day. Do you?