Lest I forget...

I'm not sure about you but I have a tendency to forget things sometimes.

I have forgotten some very important things recently.  But God spent the last few days reminding me.

It first happened when we were singing a song at church.  "Lead me to Calvary"  Sang it plenty of times in the past but it was one of those moments where the words seem as though they are speaking to you for the first time.

"Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget thine agony; Lest I forget Thy love for me, Lead me to Calvary."

It was as though God was tapping me on the shoulder, saying, "Hey Amy.  Pay attention.  Lest you forget."

That night, I couldn't shake it.  I had been struggling with discouragement and loneliness and was content wallowing in my self-pity.  

But God didn't want that.  He knew I needed to snap out of it.

I pushed the thought to the back of my mind and went about the rest of my night.  The next day, however, God tapped me on the shoulder with another reminder.  This reminder was that He has put people in my life that care about me and want to be a part of my life and want me to share it with them.  I have a tendency to not let people past a certain point but He reminded me that there are some I can let in.

Okay Lord, I'll start paying attention now.

Well, for good measure, He gave me another reminder Friday night.  

I stopped by my parents' house after Bible study and we were talking about some issues that have come up recently.  They tried talking to me about it about a week earlier but I wasn't ready.  I told them I hate making decisions and going through things by myself.  My parents reminded me that I'm not alone and that  I don't have to make decisions and go through life alone.  God tapped on my shoulder again.

"Amy, why are you so quick to forget these things?  Why do you allow yourself to be convinced that you have to do everything on your own?  Why do you convince yourself that asking for help will make you seem weak?"

"I don't know why I do those things, Lord."

"Well, lest you forget, I'm here.  I'm here to remind you of the family and friends I have given you.  Use them.  Don't shut them out.  Allow them to help you.  Draw support from Me and from them."

"Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness."  Isaiah 41:10

I forgot that when I think no one cares - God cares.

I forgot that He loves me, when I think I am unlovable.

I forgot that when I feel worthless, He sees me as worthy of His love, His time, His Son.

I forgot that when I feel all alone in this world, He's there.

I forgot that when I feel deserted, He promised to never leave me.

I forgot that He gave me this life and that He wants me to live it abundantly.

I forgot the price that He paid so that I might live.

Lest I forget again, Lord, lead me to Calvary, where I will be reminded of the price You paid for me and the love that You have for me.