Day 3 - My confidence

I know it's only day 3 of my month-long challenge but I am really enjoying this and am seeing results in my life already. I love reading and studying the Bible and am really thankful that God has allowed me to do this blog. It causes me to read my Bible differently, with a different perspective and I love seeing God work things out and show me things out of His Word. Man, I just thrive off of it sometimes!

Well, today is Proverbs 3 and this chapter is loaded with good verses and wisdom.

"Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Be not wise in thine own eyes, fear the Lord and depart from evil." Proverb 3:5-7

While those are most likely the most well-known verses from this chapter, the verse that struck my today was found later in the chapter.

"When thou liest down, thou shalt not be afraid; ye, though shalt lie down, and thy sleep shall be sweet. Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh. For the Lord shall be thy confidence, and shall keep thy foot from being taken." Proverb 3:24-26

When I read those verses, my mind immediately went to an incident that happened a few weeks ago.

There are many nights that pass, when I do not get very good sleep. A few weeks ago, I found myself awake in the middle of the night. I got up to use the bathroom and get a drink of water. On my way to the bathroom, I heard the sound of a truck driving by. I didn't think much of it and went about my tasks. I got my drink of water and on my way back to bed, I realized the sound of the truck didn't pass and fade away, it sounded as though it was right outside on the street, engine still running.

I thought it was kind of odd because it was just after 2:00 am. So I went to my living room and peeked out the window and sure enough, there was a truck parked right outside on the street - engine running but no one in the cab of the truck.

For some reason this freaked me out. My mind began to race - was someone coming to visit the people who live upstairs? Did their door open and I just missed it? Who could it be? What do they want? Why this hour of the night? Why is the engine running but no one is inside? Where are they? Where did they go?

So I grabbed my flashlight and checked every room and door in my place. Everything was fine and locked.

But the truck was still there. It's engine was still running.

I went back to my bedroom, told myself I was worried about nothing and laid down.

3 minutes later I was back up, standing by my kitchen window with my flashlight in hand.

My mind was arguing with it's self. "Amy, don't worry about it. It's nothing. If you were actually sleeping right now, you would have no idea about this truck and you wouldn't care about it."

While the other part of my brain is saying, "Yes. But I am not sleeping right now. Maybe this is the reason I'm not sleeping right now. Maybe I was supposed to wake up."

Oh. It can be an exhausting thing - knowing everything that is going on in my mind sometimes!

Just then, a verse popped into my mind.

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power and of love and of a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7

I repeated it over and over and over and over and over again in my mind.

Because of that verse, my fear was distinguished.

The truck was still there (and a good 15 minutes had lapsed now) but I no longer was afraid or worried about it. God was my confidence. It actually was quite amazing. I don't recall feeling such protection so instantly before but He did it. He was my Protector that night.

He protects us, more than we can even comprehend. He has not given us the spirit of fear and just like the Bible says, "what time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." That night, the Lord made my sleep sweet.

He is an amazing God. I love Him so much.

I am so happy that I can put my confidence in Him. Nowadays, there seems to be very little that we can put our confidence in, but I know that I will never, ever gone wrong by putting my confidence in Christ.